singing vs. worshiping

There is a big difference between performing songs for people and leading a worship song. The difference? Either I'm being judged, or I'm worshiping.

There is something freeing about just being able to present myself to God, and him being the only person that I have to remain accountable to; since he is the only one that matters anyway. I think thats why i can do that and not get nervous, because I am just being honest with him about how i feel and expressing my emotions. When it comes to singing in front of people, i feel judged. and that tends to be the case too; is she good? entertaining? funny? these are all ways that we critique whoever we hear sing... and that is what leaves me with the shakes and makes my voice weaker than when i am worshiping my God, able to pour my heart out on the floor and know that he's going to meet me there, instead of walking away if i sound bad or hit a wrong note.

there is so much freedom being before God. no wonder thats when i prefer to be...