snow when its 87 degrees outside?

Today has been filled with ups and downs.

Let me give you a general rundown of what we did. We (my two roommates and 3 other people) went to visit Mt. Shasta, which is the only mountain in Redding that has snow all year round... so i was playing in the snow in shorts and with sun glasses on my head. My body was thoroughly confused. We also went to see a cavern tour, but that was canceled due to the lightening that hit right around where we were, causing an electrical fire. That was the loudest thunder I had ever heard in my life. Quite frightening, but I got over it.

That was fine and dandy. Except, not really. It was fun, no doubt, but I realized that I was keeping to myself, finding that in conversations that I would only say something if I felt it was really necessary to say, which tended not to be the case. I had been doing that quite a bit recently, to the point that one of my roommates discerned it out of me. I told her that I wanted to go to the 24 hr. prayer house that Bethel has to have some alone time with God and she starting talking to me about how she could sense that I was removing myself because of the clash of personalities. It wasnt that they didnt get along together, but I had explained to her earlier that when there are too many people trying to be the center of attention, I will give up and go into my own shell. She then told me that she could sense that I wasnt saying things because I knew that I wouldnt be able to get much of a say in the conversation, so I was waiting for something really profound to add to the conversation so that I would be remembered, especially since that would probably be the only thing that I would get to say in the convo... and of course the tears of unrealized truth came down.

My God time was good. This place was absolutely beautiful. And I got the have a Q&A session with God, which is always helpful but always stretches me. Now, I have to apply what he told me in life and the rest of this trip. Easier said then done. :o/