lamentations, waist deep and angels

Hi guys!!

So, most recent update. Brian Doerksen came and led worship for us today (he wrote "Come, now is the time to worship" and "refiners fire"). We ended up just singing all these different Psalms today, and that was great, but all of a sudden during the set, there was a song of lamentation. It seemed really weird to be happening during the set, and that was actually part of his talk with us after worship.

His focus was being real and honest during worship because people can tell when you are being phony. This ties in to singing a song of lamentation because not everyone is in the mood to do a happy-clappy song. Sometimes, people think that God sucks because of the situation that is going on in their life and they need to express that frustration to God. And... it of course brought me back to Oak Park mentally. My thought process for this was that we have had a major loss, but is there any lamenting going on? or are we just pretending that things are ok because thats the way to deal with it; as if singing songs of joy and that "everything is going to be alright because i am trusting God" is enough to get through the pain and sadness that has come with this loss?

But thats just food for thought there.

The main thing that I have been thinking about recently is a sermon that I heard on sunday. It wasnt part of their usual service, it was a special one that they have on sunday nights. A guy named Jason Westerfield came in and spoke and boy, did he start a fire in me. He was talking to us all about the different levels of experiencing God and what comes along with that; the good, the bad and the ugly. There was a point where he was explaining being completely submerged in the spirit (not just ankle or waist deep) and at that point you can hear peoples thoughts. This was then related to Jesus and how he was able to do all this... and I wish that it was just hearing that that got me going. No, it was my thinking about something that Isabel had prophesied over me, saying that I was going to be able to pierce into people's hearts like Jesus did, and i just was blown away. I've been told that all this time has been spent to prepare me for who I really am; who I am becoming. The idea of it being this close and actually within arms reach is amazing to me. And then I had supernatural eyesight imparted on me... so hopefully I will see and angel and the spirit of God before I come home.