hypocracy and growing

So, i've recently been telling one of my friends to live and think outside of the box, because of the limits that he puts on himself. Its frustrating to see all the things that God has put into him, and him not taking advantage of them. Trust God. I dont care if your are tripping and stumbling, but as long as you're growing, thats all I want.

And then i think about this blessing i have and this urge to push him, and i realize that i am the biggest hypocrite in the entire world. stretching is good. stretching never ends. none of us welcome it though because it hurts. it makes you deal with stuff. we no longer get to live on the fluffy cloud that we landed on a while ago but we have to jump again and hope the next cloud is big enough to hold us.

i've been stretched recently. its been hard, i have to admit. I've never felt as nervous as I did today before leading worship for kids church. I didnt feel prepared, capable, developed enough to do it. people around me were supportive, but I didnt feel ready, and in the long run, I have to convince myself to do it; no one else can make that decision for me. But i did it. because I want to grow. Was it a terrible experience? no. Was it something I was proud of? no. I'm looking at it as taking a step. sometimes, its not that everything you do is going to move mountains; sometimes its just a step in the right direction, even if its not a drastic one. saying yes to something uncomfortable is growing. trusting in the impossible is growing. i guess im growing.